Some old stuff, Some new stuff, Some broken stuff, Some true stuff!

This is the stuff.. that comes from broken hearts and broken dreams...

People always ask me why I'm so happy, how I can be so cheerful.. this doesn't seem like a post about joy or happiness at first.. so make sure you read the whole thing ;)

"For without pain there can be no pleasure, without sadness there can be no happiness. Without misery there can be no beauty. And without these, life is endless, hopeless, doomed and damned.”
―  Harlan Ellison

 

 



~Walls~

walls in place
firmly laced
with lies, regrets and wishes

there to deflect
didn't want you to connect
just trying to protect
my heart

with a slow, taunting seep
stealthy emotions ran deep
I never intended to let you in

in my silly little daze
love was all I craved
had myself believing that you might actually need me
conceited, I know
someday I'll muster the strength to let you go

with these ever changing conditions
and your ever changing mind
frequently inquiring
the truth is hard to find

patience is not my state
can't persuade the hands of fate
maybe for love
it is too late

walls in place
firmly laced
with lies, regrets and wishes

-SaraKate

~Ambivalence~

I sit and ponder

the contradictions of my mind

perplexed, truly quite puzzled

was it truth that you shared with me?

was everything riddled with lies?

memories quickly flicker

like an old movie reel

can't even begin to express the way it feels

some images are welcome

others get shoved aside

forgot to buckle my seat belt

on this roller coaster ride

sweet, little memories

drift slowly by

the comforting warmth of your fingers

laced through mine

new memories come

not so sweet

reminding of times

I never wish to repeat

hot, salty tears

quickly streaming down

pail, fragile cheeks

times when your silence

was with me for weeks

some memories

harder to classify

thick tangle of emotions

I resist the urge to sigh

across the room connection

your crystal blue eyes

almost impossible to despise

my heart falters

skipping beats

some days I miss you

some days not at all

guess it doesn't matter

I should just forget about it all

no reason to live in the past

this I definitely know

for some reason or another

my heart refuses to let you go

are you Prince Charming?

is there someone else?

my excitement is building

for whoever you shall be

the moment you sweep me off my feet

I will conquer this ambivalence in me

-SaraKate

 

 

~Broken & Beautiful~

 

they told me

they warned me

they judged me

they scorned me

 

I heard

I denied

I loved

I cried

 

he knew

he played

he wooed

he lied

 

I'm broken

I'm bruised

I'm damaged

I'm used

 

HE's forgiving

HE's redeeming

HE's loving

HE's healing

 

-SaraKate

 

*HE= Jesus Christ, Emmanuel, The Bread of Life!



 

Because in the end- really only "One Things Remains" <3
One of my very favorite songs! Check it out :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GoYgi0sdOqc
 

Psalm 34:18 (HCSB)

¹⁸ The Lord is near the brokenhearted;
He saves those crushed in spirit.



 

Sincerely,

-Your broken, healing, loved and kneeling SaraKate <3